Once I get past that instinctive barrier, I feel like my body starts craving—or becoming dependent on—people who are good at making me feel good. I feel disgusted with myself. It’s like, “Why am I dependent on someone I don’t even like?”

Maezawa from the President’s Office here, answering your question as well. Thank you for your question. > If you don’t like someone, but being with them feels good, do you start seeking them out—or even come to like them? It’s possible that you already like them, but there’s a part of you that can’t honestly admit it, thinking, “There’s no way I could like someone like this” because of their appearance or something similar. In time, you may come to realize that you’ve actually fallen for them.

I’m だて◎ゆめ, a male member. > It’s like, “Why am I dependent on this when I don’t even like it?” Things like that happen. I drink, smoke, and even get involved with women, and when I read your question, I thought it was just like drinking and smoking. When I was still a kid, I used to sneak cigarettes from my dad and try them, but I thought, “This doesn’t even taste good…?” Once you actually start, though, both drinking and smoking become things you can’t quit, even when you want to. It’s the same with intimacy. When I was just starting out, I thought, “What’s the big deal about this? Adults are idiots!” But once you actually get into it, that becomes impossible to quit too（笑） Well, I guess that’s just how these things are. I’ve come to think that it’s not really a matter of whether it’s good or bad—people are simply like that by nature. If you look up “slut,” you’ll find all sorts of explanations, but I think human beings themselves are kind of like that（笑）