I have an eating disorder (bingeing and purging), and I do papa-katsu (compensated dating in Japan) to earn money for my binges. I eat and throw up an unbelievable amount, so I’m really running out of money. I binge as many as five times a day, and after each meal I stay in the bathroom for hours vomiting. I also abuse laxatives. I mostly cook for myself to save money, but when I buy food at a convenience store, it costs 3,500–5,000 yen per binge. I stuff it into my mouth while crying. I don’t even understand why I’m doing this to myself. I’m active on apps too. I want to stop doing something so unproductive and live a normal life, but I can’t escape because my papas tell me I look cuter when I’m under 40 kg, and they give me a better allowance. One of my other papas sends me LINE gifts every day because I like sweets. Most of them want the “Cinderella weight.” I can’t afford to see a psychiatrist because all my money goes toward food. I’ve been late on my credit card payments countless times, lol.