If there are any members knowledgeable about body dysmorphic disorder, please tell me.

I believe there was a book titled *Body Dysmorphic Disorder: Why Are We So Preoccupied with Beauty and Ugliness?* The author may have been a doctor specializing in that field. I read it when I was struggling with an unhealthy dependence on dieting. In another book by the same author, they pointed out that many young people today are “not fully ill,” so to speak. By that, they meant people who remain stuck in a mild, emotionally troubled state for a long time—feeling vaguely exhausted or miserable without knowing exactly why. That lack of clarity can be painful in its own way. That may possibly be the case for you as well. But youth passes quickly, and in the long run, I think it’s better to find a way to come to terms with your fear of being ugly. So, for now, I believe you have no choice but to struggle through various things and step out into society. Finding some way to make a contribution in society can sometimes be healing, too. I’m sorry if that sounds too blunt.

If your doctor says it’s okay, I think you should be able to work. But maybe you’re using that as an excuse to take time off. I want to look even prettier too. You’re not the only one.

I don’t think any member here knows more about this than your primary doctor… Mental health issues are often difficult to resolve. Your parents won’t be able to support you forever, either. You need to find a way to earn enough money to live independently. Working is one option. Before worrying about contributing to society, focus first on finding a way to live life on your own terms.