When I look through the Q&A posts, I feel like there are quite a lot of people with eating disorders. Do men notice? I’ve also been bingeing and purging every day for the past year. Honestly, even after distancing myself from the source of my stress and living a stress-free life, I haven’t been able to break the habit of binge eating, so I intend to live with it indefinitely. I used to see a psychiatrist, but honestly, it didn’t do anything for me, so I don’t go anymore. (Having to pay someone for an hour just to talk while a counselor nods along felt like such a waste of time and money.) So please refrain from giving off-topic answers such as telling me to go to a hospital.

I’m not so thin that people would suspect an eating disorder, but I’m slim and have a low-ish BMI. Even so, I eat the equivalent of 10 go of rice a day, and when I eat à la carte meals with men, I don’t know what a normal amount is, so I end up eating too much. Because of that, men who see me eat tell me, “You’re so slim, but you eat a lot.” When I was in the 30-kilogram range (the average for my height is 55 kg), I used to vomit by inserting a tube into my stomach, but now I vomit by using my abdominal muscles, so I don’t have any calluses on my knuckles at all. My bathroom trips are long (though less than 10 minutes), but I wear braces and brush my teeth frequently, so I think they probably assume that’s why I take so long. But considering that I’m eating two or three times as much as an adult man right in front of the men I’m dating, do slim women simply make men think, “I guess she’s just naturally built that way,” without them ever suspecting that she’s making herself vomit?