I’m Taro, a male member.
Thanks for the wonderfully green, newbie-like question. I wanted to give you the best, most delightfully lewd answer I could, but when I really think about it, it all comes down to wanting good H. And by “good H,” I don’t mean that simply putting a rod in a hole is enough. There are all sorts of complicated factors involved, but they’re all just steps toward good H. Ultimately, I suppose there’s such a thing as platonic love. I can see how wonderful it is in movies and so on, but I haven’t reached that level of enlightenment myself yet.
I tend to stay with people for a long time, so all sorts of things have happened. One girl I was dating got married, and we met again after a long time—presumably so she could tell me the news. But she was too embarrassed to say it. I didn’t know what was going on, and found it adorable how she kept starting to say something, then hesitating. Thinking that the best way to help her open up and say something difficult was to start with the physical side, I took her to a hotel. A few days later, I heard about her marriage by email and wrote the newlywed an apologetic message saying I was terribly sorry for my outrageous behavior.
She later got divorced. At that time, she was driven so far into a corner that she even considered taking her own life. For some reason, I ended up desperately trying to cheer her up by email while away on a business trip overseas. It was difficult with work and the time difference, but I was happy when she thanked me afterward.
I could make this sound cool by telling it that way, but that’s just hindsight. I’m not doing this because I want those kinds of experiences. The starting point is simply: “I want good H.” That’s all. For the past few years, I’ve even made sure to pray for it at my first shrine visit of the year. I’ve seen results, so I believe the gods really do exist.
