What do male members really think of female members deep down?

Maezawa here. As you said, it really depends on the person, but if he’s a gentleman with no negative feedback, I don’t think he looks down on you. The fact that he continues seeing you means he wants to meet you. There’s probably something about you—most likely how hard you work—that he appreciates and wants to support. He may also simply find your company comforting. Most men basically want to enjoy a romantic relationship, although many aren’t thinking as far ahead as marriage. That said, there have been cases of members of Universe getting married, so the possibility isn’t zero. Rather than putting yourself down, I hope you can enjoy the relationship.