For a man I have a monthly arrangement with, what happens to the allowance if we can’t meet for a month due to circumstances on his end? Does that mean I get nothing that month?

I’ve been seeing this man on a monthly arrangement for about a year. He told me that, because of the COVID situation and pressure from his family, meeting in August would be difficult. We met in July, but August seemed unlikely. He said his family had stopped him from going out because of the pandemic, so we had no choice but to cancel all of our planned dates. He said he would try to make arrangements so that we could somehow meet in August. However, he eventually told me, “I’m sorry, but I can’t meet in August either.” He didn’t mention anything about money at the time. Does this mean he’s trying to let things fade out naturally? Until now, the men I had monthly arrangements with would transfer my allowance even in months when we couldn’t meet. If things are over with this man, I’ll lose that allowance starting next month, and my finances will become extremely difficult. But there’s no way I can tell him that... We still exchange emails every day—he doesn’t use LINE, so we use Gmail—and he’s usually the one who contacts me. He says things like, “I want to see you soon,” and “Isn’t there any way we can meet?” But the whole issue would be solved if he simply decided to meet me in Tokyo. Of course, given the current situation, I can’t exactly say that. I feel helpless and miserable that all I can do is spend enjoyable time with him over email... What do you think this man is thinking? (>_<) Is it really just because he can’t meet due to COVID? It would be sad if he had found another woman or simply gotten tired of me, but if that’s the case, I’d like to move on and look for someone else.