Tips
Sep 21, 2021 00:26
I act so innocent in front of my boyfriend. In reality, I’m a terrible woman who’s had adult relationships with around 20–30 men through papa-katsu (compensated dating in Japan). I’m turning 24. I’ve had two boyfriends in the past and was very serious about both. There was also one person I became physically involved with on our third date despite us not being in a relationship.
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Now I have my third boyfriend in life, and whenever we hold hands or he hugs me, my heart starts racing, my body flinches, and I get nervous.
So even though we’ve been on about six dates, we’ve only kissed so far, and he’s been holding himself back. We’re planning an overnight date soon.
He said, “You’ve been in relationships before, right? Your reactions are cute, but it’s kind of strange.” I replied, “I don’t know why either, but I get so nervous.”
In my mind, we’ve been dating for a while now, and I’m fine with becoming physically intimate beyond kissing. Do you think I should avoid making a move myself and continue leaving things up to him?
I’ve had adult relationships with a papa (a male supporter) many times, and honestly, I lost my virginity through papa-katsu, so I don’t understand why I get so nervous, tense, and stiff like this.
I want things to progress beyond kissing, but my body gets tense, which makes him hold back.
Could he end up thinking I’m too much trouble and leave me?
Since you all have so much more life experience, I’d really appreciate your advice.
