I have a strong desire to be loved wholeheartedly. The papa I met here told me I was his girlfriend, and we’ve been together without an allowance.
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I’m held by him about once every two days without a condom.
I’m the only one who has already left the club.
In my heart, I loved him wholeheartedly, prepared to spend the rest of my life with him.
I saw us as being like Cha Tae-hyun and Aya—I thought of us as that kind of couple. Like Aya, I wanted to study so I could support him as he grew older, and I was willing to do anything I could to be there for him.
He says he’s devoted to me, but I know that he offers dates to and goes out with many other girls.
Does someone like me, accepting such fake declarations of devotion, even have any value?
My life feels tainted.
Am I just wasting the time I dedicate to this person?
That’s how I’ve started to feel.
Maybe I was wrong to use this service because I couldn’t become independent. Maybe I was wrong to believe him. If someone tells me that it’s only natural, given the kind of person I am, then they’re right. I’m not particularly attractive or well-proportioned, and I didn’t grow up in a privileged environment.
How can I deal with this greedy desire to be loved wholeheartedly? Is it possible to stop loving him?
I’m Aya, a female member.
I believe relationships formed through an arrangement club are difficult to sustain without an allowance—they come with a high barrier to entry. If you’re looking for undivided affection, the allowance should be proportionate as well.
I really love my papa (a male supporter), but that’s because the generous allowance helps ease my guilt about dating a married man.
Let’s stop giving ourselves to married men who won’t take any responsibility, especially for free. There’s nothing in it for you—it will only wear down your self-esteem.
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This is Ayase Nana☆
What exactly are you taking seriously? You’re just being deceived.
“I love you,” “I adore you”—other women are hearing those same lines too.
He’s just manipulating you into quitting the site, and you’re meeting him every other day and having unprotected sex. What are you going to do if he gives you an STI?
Get a grip.
You don’t love your papa (a male supporter); you’re simply dependent on him. Have more confidence in yourself.
> “A fake, devoted love?”
Whenever he says the word, you spread your legs for him—you’re nothing more than a hole. That isn’t devotion.
> “Is my life dirty?”
I’d love to meet someone who’s living a perfectly clean life.
You can improve your figure to some extent with stretching and strength training. As for your face, wear makeup and make an effort.
Do you really think I feel sorry for someone who only pays lip service and says, “Poor me”?
Dump that loser right now. He’s a waste of your time.
Time can’t be bought with money.
I’m rooting for you now that you’ve decided to move forward.
Best of luck.
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I’m Meg, a female member.
You’ve done wonderfully up to now.
That fact doesn’t change, so please have confidence in yourself.
You don’t need to start hating him either.
But you can’t control his actions, can you?
Do you really want to keep being his convenient woman as things are now?
Or do you want to move on to a new love?
You’re still young.
Take some time to search your heart and think carefully.
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I’m Flag Maker, a columnist.
To begin with, looking for “the desire to be loved devotedly” from a man you met through a club is easy and convenient—but it’s also an escape.
This outcome is 100% your fault. It was the outcome you chose, and the other person bears no responsibility.
If you keep relying on something so easy, you’ll never grow as a person.
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be loved devotedly. But looking for that here is where you went wrong. The men here may act like gentlemen, but they’re all morally broken, abnormal people—including me, of course.
You need to clean up your own mess. I believe that leads to personal growth, so make your own decisions and take action.
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I’m Kazu, a male member.
What exactly do you mean by, “Maybe it was my fault for using this service because I couldn’t become independent”? Aren’t you blaming someone else somewhere along the line?
Right now, you’re the one letting a man who willingly spends setup fees and allowances on other women have sex with you for free every other day. Is your way of showing devotion supposed to be the allowance? This was no one else’s choice—it was yours.
It may be tactless of me to pour cold water on you while you’re so comfortably immersed in your tragic-heroine mindset, but you seem to want someone to say it, so here goes:
You’re simply choosing to remain immersed in this situation. You have to carve out your own path in life.
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