Is this just an excuse?

If you want money, it’s lucky that you can see people as money. I honestly don’t understand why you think that makes you “rotten.” Most women struggle because they can’t see money in everyone, so if you look at it positively, being able to tolerate any papa as long as the money is right makes you the ultimate papa-katsu girl. You might as well go for the gross old men nobody else will deal with, as long as they offer a generous allowance. Getting lots of allowance would make you very happy, wouldn’t it? So don’t let yourself get jaded—keep at it and make as much as you can.

I don’t think money is everything, but realistically, money solves about 80–90% of the problems in this world, so the questioner’s “It’s all about money, isn’t it?” isn’t off the mark. They’ve hit the bull’s-eye. There’s nothing we can do about women seeing us old guys as Eiichi—the face of money—and I’ve never once resented them for it. In return, please allow us old guys to seek youth and beauty in women. Though I guess they’re not exactly going to approve, haha. I don’t know. I honestly don’t think it matters that much. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with wanting money—in fact, it’s only natural. And even if you can see a man only as money, you don’t need to worry that there’s something wrong with you. Last week, an incredibly cute college girl told me, “You’re the first person I’ve ever wanted to see even without money.” But she still accepted her allowance and went home. I used to doubt those words, “You’re the first person I’ve ever wanted to see even without money,” but now I choose to believe them. papa-katsu is a fantasy, and I figured it’s more enjoyable if you believe in it. That said, just because I believe her, I would never say, “Then you don’t need your allowance, right?” Nor would that thought ever cross my mind. There are tons of old guys who go on about how they hate girls who are all about money. Every woman should just answer them, “Would you meet a girl you didn’t find cute?”

> I see men as money. Come to think of it, one trait that makes a woman well-suited to working in the adult entertainment industry is being able to see men as money. That’s why she can smile and be pleasant with any man (because she loves money), treat men in ways that make them happy (because she loves money), and, because she genuinely loves money, do anything for the things she wants. Then the man starts thinking, “Maybe she really likes me?” (when in fact, she likes the money he has) and “She’s a nice woman.” He wants to come back again, and so on—or at least that’s how I remember the story going. If a woman merely likes money, a man may think, “She cares more about money than she does about me. She’s too money-minded—I don’t like that.” But if she sees men as money, then “liking money” becomes “liking men”—though only men who have money. So the man thinks, “Maybe she really likes me?” and “I want to see her again.” That makes me feel that, in reality, it may be better to be someone who sees men as money. Being halfway about it isn’t necessarily good; sometimes it’s better to go all the way.

The reason I think that is because the person asking probably struggled financially in the past. Someone like me, who has never had financial difficulties since I was young, isn’t attached to money. Air and water are important, but you probably don’t think of them as especially precious, do you? It’s the same thing. On the other hand, men who get hooked on papa-katsu (compensated dating in Japan)—myself included—probably experienced a lack of women at some point in their past. Not financial poverty, but “woman poverty.” No matter how many women we sleep with, we’re never satisfied. It’s the same as what money is to the person asking. Neither financial poverty nor woman poverty can really be cured, even when you understand it intellectually. They call it being a hungry ghost. Even if the person asking succeeds and becomes incredibly wealthy, they probably still won’t feel fulfilled. They’ll just want more money. Money doesn’t guarantee happiness, but not having money will definitely make you unhappy. You know that very well, don’t you? That’s why you’re so attached to it. You probably spent the first half of your life without feeling much lack of being told things like “I love you” or “You’re cute.” That confidence will remain even as you grow old. You’re probably happy in your own way, but from the outside, something about it looks strange. It’s not that you’ve “gone bad.” Your values probably became fixed as you grew into adulthood. They’re like a tattoo etched into your unconscious, so they won’t change unless something truly extraordinary happens. Collectors are probably the same. Old trading cards sometimes sell for huge sums, right? They pay a fortune to own a rare card, but they’re no longer the child who genuinely wanted it, so I’m sure it doesn’t truly satisfy them. It’s like drinking salt water when you’re thirsty. The thirst never goes away. I wonder what it’s like for people who seek family bonds. Can someone who was abused by their parents and deprived of affection really become happy? From what I’ve observed, they seem to lose the ability to recognize affection as affection. It’s as if affection isn’t something to nurture together, but something to fight over and take. Maybe that’s the hell people eventually arrive at when they suffer from deprivation. “My parents didn’t love me, so at least I’ll love them.” But when even that feeling is dismissed, love becomes nothing but something to take. So they try to take everything from anyone who loved them, until that person’s life is destroyed. They don’t know how to respond to love with love, because their parents never taught them. In the end, they can only feel that something is genuine when it comes from someone trying to take love away from them, just as their parents did. It’s like eating too much extremely spicy food until your sense of taste goes numb. Anyway, the first thing we can do—just as I do—is become aware of it. Recognize that you’re a hungry ghost, and that this is your own personal hell. Even today, I woke up to find a naked college girl sleeping beside me. I can have sex whenever I want, and only then can I finally relax—a hell that feels like heaven. Thank goodness I have money. Maybe the person asking should just surround themselves with the money they love and mutter, “I’m so glad I’m cute and well-liked.” Just be aware that it’s a hell that looks like heaven. Not that either of us has anywhere else to go. A verse came to me: Papa-katsu— a hungry-ghost memorial rite, for men and women alike You’re only one step away from enlightenment, haha. That said, if someone is doing papa-katsu simply to satisfy their sexual desire or earn money they need, it’s not that deep. I’m talking about the mindset of someone who has started seeing men as nothing but money, or someone like me who is nearly free of sexual desire itself yet ejaculates every day as if possessed by something. Morinaga Takuro’s excessive collecting seems similar to me. The person asking is simply a collector of money. You keep collecting it even when you don’t need it, right? As for me, I don’t have much desire for pseudo-romance—or for being emotionally liked by women. My life has been filled with affection and love from women, including my mother, as naturally as air and water. So I feel like I can understand the person asking’s feeling of not reacting to words like “You’re cute” or “I like you.” For men who genuinely fall in love and want true love rather than a physical relationship, it’s probably that emotional side they’re lacking. It might help all of you to look back and think about what kind of “poverty” you suffer from, and acknowledge it. It makes things a little easier.

Exactly. From the questioner’s perspective… If all men look like money to you, then any papa (male supporter) must look good, right...?