I really want a Van Cleef necklace, and I’m struggling with what to do.

I’m a 22-year-old woman who has been doing papa-katsu (compensated dating in Japan) and work in the adult entertainment industry on and off since I was 18, right after graduating high school. Because I have a diagnosed developmental disorder and was bullied at school and at part-time jobs, I became anxious about functioning in society. I started doing this because I desperately wanted to meet a man who would support me financially and introduce me to high-end brands. Van Cleef has been my dream brand since I was a teenager. Over the past four years, I’ve hardly met anyone I could continue seeing regularly. However, I’m due to start a regular day job this month, and I also expect to receive ¥200,000 a month through a dating club. I finally feel like I’m at the starting line of being able to buy a Van Cleef piece. Since I’m doing papa-katsu, though, I would ideally like to meet a man who would buy it for me. When I asked my mother about this, she told me, “If you wear a brand-name item that you bought yourself, a man who wants to buy things for you will eventually notice it and appear.” With that in mind, I’m considering buying a Van Cleef piece for myself first, as mentioned above. I’ve researched the designs and chains of Van Cleef necklaces, as well as the brand’s history, and I find them incredibly appealing. However, I can’t help having the rather shameful thought that buying one myself might be a waste, since some women involved in papa-katsu have their Van Cleef pieces bought for them. I’m conflicted. I’m sorry for going on at such length about my personal circumstances. Here are my questions: Question for male members: What impression would you have of a woman doing papa-katsu who bought a Van Cleef necklace with her own money and wears it? Would some of you see it positively, as a sign that she’s working hard? Question for female members: If there’s a brand you want, do you generally have your papa (a male supporter) buy it for you, or do you sometimes buy it yourself? I’d appreciate everyone’s answers. I’m sorry to bring something like this to a free Q&A forum, but I’m seriously struggling with this, so I’d be grateful if as many people as possible could share their thoughts!