At night, I start remembering painful things from the past.

Sometimes I overthink so much that I end up crying and can’t sleep. Someone I loved (though we never dated) told me, “You should just die” and “I’m not interested in you.” I thought my friends liked me reasonably well, but in reality, they treated me as if I were invisible. I always ended up playing the supporting role next to my attractive female friends. In Universe, thankfully, there are several men who accept me. However, outside the Universe world, in ordinary social life, I always have this deep-seated anxiety: “Do I fit in? Do people like me?” Because of what happened in the past, my self-esteem has also declined, and I can no longer take a step forward romantically. I keep thinking, “Someone like me shouldn’t be allowed to feel confident.” It’s really painful. But outside, I try not to show this dark side of myself and act cheerful and lively. How can I make these feelings go away?