I Can’t Help Comparing My Papas

Is it strange that I feel uncomfortable about it? - He messages me every day saying things like “I love you” and “I like you,” but the allowance is on the low side. He keeps me for long periods because he wants to spend as much time together as possible. He cooks for me, usually things like curry, and when we eat out near his workplace so he can claim it as a business expense, the bill for both of us is under ¥20,000. We’ve been seeing each other for about a year, and he has taken me on one luxurious trip. I didn’t think too much about it because I was doing it for the money, but then— - There’s another papa who sends only the minimum amount of messages, gives me a much larger allowance, takes me to upscale restaurants, and keeps our meetings short—if he wants to spend more time together, he says we can just meet again. We’ve also been seeing each other for about a year. I can’t help comparing them. My first papa isn’t a bad person, and I continued replying to his messages without complaining, partly to show my appreciation for the one luxurious trip he took me on. However, he also has other women, and apparently sends the same “I love you” messages to several of them every day. One of those women is the same age as him, and their relationship seems more like a regular romantic relationship, so he apparently spends his own money on expensive gifts and meals for her without receiving an allowance. In my case, I can tell that because I receive an allowance, he tries not to spend much money on me. I’m not asking him for gifts or expensive meals, but I’ve started wanting the same kind of messages and dates he gives her. When I realized that he wouldn’t give me gifts or pay for expensive meals, while still expecting the same amount of time and attention, I began to feel like he was treating me carelessly, and it started to really bother me. Sorry for the long post. He tells me over LINE that he likes me more than he likes her. But I find it contradictory that he expects me to spend time with him and message him every day as if I were his real girlfriend, while still keeping the allowance the same and not taking me out to dinner or buying me a present even on Christmas. I suddenly started feeling uncomfortable and distanced myself from him. Something similar has happened in the past, too. When I start feeling uncomfortable with a papa, it isn’t because of his appearance. It’s when I realize that he spends money on other women but not on me—which is completely fine in itself—while expecting more of my time and more messages than from the other women. That’s when I start feeling uncomfortable. I’m sorry again for the long post. Thank you in advance for your advice.