After dating my papa for about six months, he started looking at my face a lot during the intimate part.

Maybe she was already looking, but the person asking just didn’t notice? lol Women tend to be turned on by the atmosphere, while men are more visually stimulated. Seeing a woman’s facial expressions and body while being intimate is exciting, so I guess Fuu gets most excited by standing rear-entry in front of a mirror. By the way, among the women Fuu has observed, there are: 1. Those who stare with their eyes wide open 2. Those who occasionally peek with half-closed eyes 3. Those who keep their eyes closed Most are ② or ③, so when there’s occasionally someone in category ①, I realized it does feel a little unusual. Fuu wants to see a woman’s face when she’s enjoying herself too, but thinking about it from my own perspective, I can see how uncomfortable it would be. So I’ll avoid staring and just sneak a few glances instead.

Mac seems a little lonely, so I’ll answer, lol. I can’t speak for everyone—this is just how it is for me. I don’t usually look at a woman’s face, but if I can tell she’s enjoying herself during sex (even if she’s putting on an act), I start wanting to see her face. In a cliché example, when doing it from behind in front of a mirror, women tend to lower their faces when they’re moaning. But getting her to lift her face toward the mirror and watching her reflection like that is incredibly exciting. It’s probably annoying for the woman, though, haha. When she isn’t really feeling it—or when I’m not particularly excited—I don’t look at her face. That’s true even with someone I’ve just met or a regular I’ve been seeing for a long time. Thinking back on it because Mac brought it up, Ace is the only one who asks me to show her my face during sex. If I think about it that way, maybe she’s the only one who actually loves me to some extent. Damn it. I give plenty of money to the other girls too, though. I’ll also talk about what it’s like with a woman I genuinely love. When I love a woman deeply, I can’t look directly at her face at all. The best I can do is look at her profile or her sleeping face. Women are the same, right? When it’s a man your own age whom you really like, isn’t it hard to look him straight in the face? So, from that, I can kind of tell that the papa (a male supporter) asking this question isn’t genuinely in love with you. Maybe he’s simply gotten more comfortable with you. Even after getting used to someone, I personally don’t often look at the face of a woman I’m not feeling anything for.

At first, I assume you thought it was normal to have sex with him, but then you started thinking, “Her face looks kind of cute when she’s enjoying herself.” You figured she wouldn’t be looking at you because she was so caught up in the moment, so you kept watching her—only to realize she had actually been watching you too. Is that what happened? I’m not sure whether that’s the reason, but if he was watching you during the moment, I think it probably means he likes you. It may be best to just take it as one of those things.

At first, I stuck to fairly conventional intimacy so I wouldn’t be disliked, but lately I feel like I’ve been trying to explore new things while watching their reactions.

There’s a type of question that comes up from time to time that I call a “mirror question”—the kind that asks, “What do men think in situations like this?” If you answer it honestly, you end up exposing and putting your own inner thoughts into words. Sometimes I reread what I wrote afterward and even surprise myself. At the same time, I start to feel embarrassed and wonder, “Is this actually just someone messing with me—trying to draw out the respondent’s inner thoughts so they can have a laugh?” When that happens, my answer can turn rather curt, along the lines of, “Please stop mocking people.” This question feels a little like that too—a psychological-test-type question that reflects the respondent’s inner thoughts. As for my answer: Most papa-katsu girls are putting on a polite smile when they’re having dinner with you. But I think the face they make when they climax is genuine. I’m not confident about whether they actually like me as a person or as a man, but when I’m thrusting into them, I feel that their unrestrained expression is something I created. So sometimes I stare at it intently, with something like affection for my own work. I don’t find the expression itself particularly erotic. It isn’t exactly beautiful. Rather, I feel a sense of conquest—as if I’ve destroyed that beauty myself. So, in a word, I suppose it comes down to “conquest.” It’s like looking over and confirming newly acquired territory. On the other hand, there have been times when a girl has looked closely at my face. Not during sex, but when we’re sitting side by side having dinner or when she’s using her phone, she’ll look at me from straight on. When I look back, she’ll seem embarrassed, blush, and not know where to look. I like to imagine that’s when a woman has developed feelings for me—but maybe my eyebrow was just getting too long and she was thinking, “He really should pluck that one.” I should probably mention that I’ve had experiences like this too, otherwise I feel like one of the guys who always loses will jump in and try to one-up me, haha. I’m also kind of looking forward to seeing how the other men answer.

I’m embarrassed about having my middle-aged face looked at, and although I want to look at a woman’s face, I’m afraid she’ll find me creepy and dislike me if our eyes meet. So at first, I don’t look at her face very much. The fact that I can look at her face now is a good sign—I’ve been seeing her for six months, things seem to have settled into a stable arrangement, and I finally feel comfortable enough to gaze at her pretty face.