I feel like my life is over.

If you’re around 30 but still in your twenties, you’ve got plenty of options left. If you have gravure-model looks, you could work in nightlife—at a snack bar, girls’ bar, hostess club, or lounge. Depending on your people skills, you could work pretty much anywhere. You could also learn skills in esthetics, nails, or other beauty fields, study for certifications, and so on. At your age, I really think you still have plenty of possibilities. Lol. You’re looking for someone to tell you, “It’s going to be okay,” right? Haha.

I’m not sure how dire your situation is, but… In papa-katsu (compensated dating in Japan) and nightlife jobs, people with backgrounds like “former model” or “former AV performer” seem to be in demand. Why not make the most of that experience while using the money you earn to learn a practical skill? It could be caregiving, nail work, office administration—anything, really. Japan also has welfare benefits and other support systems that can help you if things don’t work out, so I think you should start by trying different things. Even in the worst case, you’ll manage somehow.

> “My life is over.” It’s not often that someone’s entire life is truly over, though. Do you have more than 100 million yen in debt or something? Even if that were the case, there’s always the option of declaring bankruptcy. If you can only do papa-katsu (compensated dating in Japan), that still means you can do papa-katsu. So I think you should simply continue with it. > “I never got anywhere.” I feel like most people—apart from a small minority—never really make it. So there’s no point in despairing over that. I think there are still things you can do, even now. And even if you truly couldn’t do anything, some people have had astonishing experiences. For example, when you hear stories about celebrities who grew up poor, they talk about sticking to the walls of other people’s houses to stay warm, eating grass from riverbanks, or hugging a stone while sleeping because it was warm. You probably still have a place to live and some money, so I think it would be good to try various things you can do. Pick Up Your Head Throw Away Your Blue's It’s only one life, after all The More You Give Babe the Less You Lose yeah If luck turns against you, you’ll just die—that’s all, that’s all.

I don’t know anything about working in show business, but being just shy of 30 certainly doesn’t mean your life is over. It’s probably a tough world, so there may be things you have to give up—but not everything. You may not believe this right now, convinced that your dreams have been shattered, but being just shy of 30 is still the morning of your life. You have plenty to do, and it’s the perfect time to lay the groundwork. Before complaining that you’re “finished,” try starting something. You’re young, so part of me wants to tell you to work hard for Japan.

By “caregiving,” you mean care workers, right? I just searched for “care worker” on Universe Club, and there are about 30 nationwide. Some are in their early twenties, and plenty are even in the Platinum class. First, apologize to all those care-worker PJs, lol. You seem to have some pretty misguided ideas about life, but most people pursue their dreams while also earning practical, unglamorous qualifications as a safety net in case things don’t work out. You clearly don’t think that way. You’re still under 30, so whether it’s caregiving, a commercial driver’s license, or anything else, you should start by getting some kind of qualification. You have enough time and money to devote yourself to studying for one, don’t you? Well, even if you can’t do that, there are plenty of people who live happily without any qualifications at all. You’ll probably just ask questions here, get some comfort if possible, take your mind off things, and then go back to the same old routine—but that’s fine too. No one knows what the right answer in life is. Success and failure are all illusions. You’ll understand once you’re over 60, when you start to feel yourself moving toward having no desires. There’s a certain peace in that, and it’s not bad. I watched a movie the other day called *Men and Women: The Best Years of Our Lives*. You should watch it too.