Even if you leave it to her through inheritance after you die, she’ll still have to pay inheritance tax. You’d also need to specify it clearly in your will, which could make your living relatives resent her. The larger the amount, the more complicated it seems—and they could probably make a claim for their reserved share.
So give that woman plenty while you’re still alive, haha.
As for why you feel that way, everyone’s different, so I think only you can truly understand your own feelings.
I can relate to the way you’re trying to navigate this relationship while wrestling with all sorts of doubts as someone around the same age.
That said, I’m afraid I can’t bring myself to ask questions—including your previous one—that I think people should figure out for themselves. I’m sorry.
Unless I were asking a close, longtime friend, my answer would simply be, “How should I know?”
Still, that would be awfully cold of me toward someone wandering through life at the same age, so I’d like to restore the balance by asking what I consider an embarrassing question of my own:
“Hi, I’m Joe. I’d like to ask for advice about Emmy, the woman I’m currently seeing.
There’s a thirty-year age gap between us. Needless to say, she’s younger. However, perhaps because we work in the same industry, we have an incredible amount to talk about. She’s spoken casually to me and called me ‘Ken-kun’ ever since we first met.
Neither ‘Ke’ nor ‘n’ appears in Joe’s real name, but apparently I resemble Emmy’s first love, ‘Ken-kun,’ so she started calling me that.
Being called by a nickname by a woman thirty years younger really does something for me—especially my dick. Maybe that’s why Emmy and I do little besides have sex.
Yesterday, too, we were making our voices echo through a hideaway attic room in Sanjo, Kyoto. Unfortunately, when things reached their climax, Emmy asked me, ‘More—push deeper!’
Sadly, both physically and in terms of size, I can’t keep thrusting as deeply as Emmy wants. Is there anything I can do? I don’t want to have surgery.”
> Since I probably only have about ten more healthy years left, I want to live a life without regrets.
This really is a precious ten years or so, isn’t it?
When I was young, I never imagined I could enjoy happiness more deeply than I did back then. And yet, to my surprise, I’m able to feel a kind of happiness that seems like the peak of my life…
The fact that I may be living a more fulfilling life now than in my youth or during my青春 years… It’s one surprise after another…
Being able to feel this fulfilled and happy, I imagine it would be wonderful to give back to the world in many ways—including to your family.
I believe you’ve arrived at where you are now—at everything you’ve gained and are able to feel—because of all that you’ve been through.
That said, to experience this kind of happiness, I think you also need to have lived a fulfilling, regret-free life in the mainstream world, in contrast to papa-katsu in the underground world.
If I knew for certain that she genuinely liked me, I might even give her tens of millions of yen. If I only had a short time left to live, I feel like I’d give it all away too.
If it were someone I really adored, I’d want to make sure she’d never have to worry about money for the rest of her life.
