Seattle, Nichigetsu Arata, and Dai, thank you for your answers.

First of all, I think it’s best to take a break when you’re mentally exhausted. My ex-wife had a mental illness, and as her symptoms worsened, her medication increased, which also affected her body shape and odor. We stayed married until things settled down, but I got the impression that it took quite a long time before she was able to manage her condition. That said, when it comes to work, a person’s mindset makes a big difference. When you work reluctantly, negative feelings can creep in—you may start blaming others or wondering why you’re the only one who has to work so hard. There are books on mental training, and I believe you can change the way you think to some extent through practice. I hope you’re able to enjoy your work.

Sometimes, running away is the best option. It’s common to have to wait about a month for a first appointment with a psychiatrist or psychosomatic medicine specialist, since they need enough time for an initial consultation and assessment. If waiting for an appointment feels too overwhelming, go to a local internist and explain that you’re feeling unwell. They may prescribe antidepressants, sleeping pills, or similar medication. They might not be willing to write a medical certificate for your employer to approve a leave of absence, though—it depends on the doctor. You can’t keep going to an internist forever, so ask them for a referral to a psychiatrist. The doctor shouldn’t take it badly. You may also be able to get the medical certificate for your leave of absence there. While you’re on leave, you may be eligible for sickness benefits through your health insurance, and in some cases workers’ compensation as well, if there was an event that caused significant psychological stress. There are endless options available to you. Although this is a non-organic condition, once you become depressed, it can sometimes take years to fully recover. That company isn’t the only place where you can work. Your coworkers and supervisor aren’t your entire world either. Please get away before you completely break down. I don’t write columns, so this isn’t an answer to the question.

When you’re feeling overwhelmed, take a break sooner rather than later. You can even say you have a 40°C fever. I’ve written a column for the first time in three and a half years, so it’ll be posted sometime soon. Check it out when it’s up.