I also enjoy Flag Maker’s metaphysical take on things.
I’ve entered the zone during a game exactly once, and it really was a sense of oneness. The spectators, my opponent, and I all became one, and even the concept of time disappeared. It was a strange experience.
The reason I give money away is for my own sake. It feels good to give money to juniors I’m fond of and to my monthly arrangement partners who treat me well. I give them money because it feels good. Sex is merely one of the reasons for giving money, so the frequency of sex with my ace has been steadily decreasing. I’m grateful simply for her existence, so there’s no problem even if we don’t have sex. I already receive more than enough happiness from my ace.
Once one of my monthly arrangement partners becomes one of her “top three,” I even give money to her top-three partner’s sisters and best friends. I give them 100,000 yen across the board. Sometimes I suddenly bring them along to dinner, and when they’re the best friends or sisters of someone I’m seeing, I can’t help but find them adorable. So I hand them the money on the spot and bask in the feeling.
It’s like:
“I’ve become successful enough to hand 100,000 yen to her best friend without hesitation.”
That kind of feeling.
Money makes the world go round, and as Flag Maker says, in the end, it’s almost like I’m giving money to myself. So I don’t feel the slightest reluctance.
I know from experience that investing in myself brings big returns later, so I intend to keep giving away plenty of money.
Of course, I only do this for people I personally find adorable, okay? I’m not going to give money to complete strangers, lol.
I also treat male juniors I’m fond of all the time. Treating people feels great.
If you understand this feeling of mine, you shouldn’t think that the 150,000, 170,000, or 200,000 yen allowances I give my monthly arrangement partners are “too high” or that I’m not actually giving them the money. I call it “getting old” when someone can only see things through the lens of their own common sense.
At the molecular level, human beings aren’t even connected as one entity; we’re made up of separate parts. Bones, internal organs, skin, and so on come together to form what we vaguely recognize as “the self.”
In other words, at the molecular level, each individual molecule is its own “individual,” while at the same time being part of the larger “whole” that is you.
The universe can be understood in the same way: each person is an individual, but also part of the whole.
And since human beings are constantly changing, the person you are a few seconds from now is already a different self—a “self separated by time.” Meanwhile, the person in front of you is a “self separated by space.”
So being kind to others is the same as being kind to yourself. It comes back to you as something good for your “self separated by time”—that is, your future self.
That’s how it works. If you can grasp this intuitively, you’re considered to have a high level of spiritual awareness.
